Infidelity Secrets

Secrets about infidelity and cheating.

I feel awful about cheating on my boyfriend

Sunday, 20 January 2008

I have just recently cheated on my boyfriend of almost 8 years. I apologize for the long entry!

Let me start by saying, my boyfriend and I have been dating since we were 16. I feel as though I lost out on a lot of experiences growing up, such as living on my own, flings, broken hearts, because I joined such a commited relationship so young.

It all started about 3 months ago when I became friends with a team mate. We hit it off as friends but looking back there was definitely more. He is a married man, about 14 years older then me. We spent alot of time talking, mostly over the computer. We would drive to games together, and sometimes go for lunch. At the time, it seemed so innocent. We would hug, but nothing more. I kept things going because it felt good to just have something different in my life and to have the chance to get to know someone else, all the while thinking that I would never cross the line. I think he was interested for the same reason, as he told me I made him feel alive.

Anyways, things progressed quite quickly. He flirted alot and on several occasions mentioned having a secret affair. I told him that there was no way I could cheat on my boyfriend, little did I know that I was already emotionally cheating on him by even pursuing the "friendship".

Eventually it lead to us both giving in, and cheating. We didn’t have sex (thank goodness) but we did make out.

I have felt sick to my stomach guilty every since. I like to think that it was never my intention to cheat, but then why didn’t I cut off all ties with the guy? I know that there is no way I can take back what I did, and the regret I feel because of that is so horrible. I am keeping it from my long time boyfriend because I think it would only be selfish to tell him. In a perfect world I would like to think I could confess and he would forgive and we could move forward unscathed. But I know that is impossible. So now I am left trying to deal with the feelings of guilt so that he doesn’t have to be burdened by my mistake.

I have told the other guy that I am terribly sorry for what has happened and that he needs to be out of my life.

If anything good has come from this, it is that I hope I become a better person. To myself, and to my boyfriend. I want to focus on the reasons I let this happen in the first place, and I want to know better for next time.

My advice to anyone who is in a similar situation: please learn from my mistake!! It is not worth the hurt and pain that you have to deal with. If you are in a relationship that is unhappy, or in limbo, look at the reasons why and try to come up with solutions. Cheating, and being neglectful are only temporary solutions and in fact make things much more complicated in the end.

It just isn’t worth it.

To my boyfriend, I am so terribly sorry. I have made a very bad mistake, and I vow to you that I will learn from it. I will try to be a better girlfriend to you, and if our problems can’t be resolved then I will let you go so that this cannot happen again. I love you with all my heart, and from all this pain and guilt, something good will come from it.

I am bored with my wife

Friday, 11 January 2008

I’m bored and uninterested in my marriage. I still love my wife but the excitement of being with someone else overwhelms me, and I continue to do it. I have only had sex several times with others, and I haven’t told her. I want to keep cheating, especially when she is out of town. I meet so many girls and so many are interested. I could have gotten together with a hundred, but I’ve kept it at a hand-full. I have had sex with one, another gave me oral sex, and I’ve made out with countless others.

I want to have my lover’s children

Saturday, 15 December 2007

He takes my breath away! I am madly in love with a super sexy, sparkly-eyed, husband and father of two. I want him to be the father of my children, however, my husband would be keenly aware that this love child would not be his own!

I am waiting for him to leave his wife

Wednesday, 14 November 2007

I am deeply in love with and having an affair with a married man for almost 2 years now. (He came to rekindle our love after only a month of being married.) He was shocked to find out that we had a child from our previous fling and says that that makes the bond between us even stronger. I believe that because I feel that he is my soul mate. He has proposed to me twice already and swears that he is going to leave his kid’s mother (that’s what he calls her—he refers to me as his wife)—when finances allow. I have tried to end this several times but always we seem to talk through it and remain together. I am torn—sometimes I am sad, lonely, confused and other days I am overcome with the ideas of our life together. Am I being foolish? Should I even entertain the thought of a future with him? All I know is I WANT HIM. I am counting the days until he divorces her and hopefully begins a life with me and our child. That is selfish and cold-hearted. What am I to do? I can’t see my life without him in it.

I’m cheating on my boyfriend with a younger man

Sunday, 04 November 2007

I’ve been cheating on my boyfriend of 9 yrs with a guy whose 20 yrs younger than me. He is 24 and a good friend of my nephew. He also has a girlfriend. I try not to answer my phone when he calls, but I can’t help it. Every time he calls I jump. We have sex then leave each other ASAP. His girlfriend is always calling when were together and we don’t want to get caught. I guess it’s all about the thrill, rush and excitement. Nobody knows and we’re keeping it that way.

Cheating on my boyfriend with a friend from work

Friday, 05 October 2007

I cheated on my boyfriend last summer with I guy that I worked with. Since my job is seasonal, I figured I could get away with keeping my feelings for my coworker secret and that they would go away over the winter. So I denied everything when my boyfriend would ask me about it and we’re still going out to this day.

But everyday I thought about "him" and the one time that we had hooked up. But as time went on, it was getting easier to forget everything. Then summer came and I saw him again for the first time since last summer. I didn’t think the feelings I had for him would come back but they did. We ended up hooking up again, but this time it was more than just that. He told me that he loved me and he always will and that he wished he would’ve told me before. But he has a girlfriend now and I still have my boyfriend so timing couldn’t get any worse.

We stay in touch and continue to be friends even though his girlfriend and my boyfriend don’t like it.

My affair has left me with a broken heart

Friday, 05 October 2007

I have only ever been in love once, and still am. Although married (just split) after 27 years, I can only love this other man. There will never be anyone else. I do not think he loves me, we shared extreme physical communication and lots of romance, but I believe that is all he wants.

I met him again after three years apart, he did not want to know me, he has been distant but I still just don’t get it.

I cannot help but feel that he has the same sort of feelings for me. My head says that it is all wrong and that I should never have let my husband go, because this other man is not only married but from a very strict religious background. It would never ever work.

But there is something there that cannot be described. I want to get away again now and stop contacting him. He is always too busy to see me, so I know it seems pathetic that I keep contacting him. But there is this underlying feeling that we were meant to be together.

It is a very hard place to be, as now I have my freedom from a volatile relationship and have more to offer, but now he is really not interested.

I feel better now for sharing this secret because my heart is broken and needs to heal.

Still tempted to cheat but trying not to

Monday, 01 October 2007

My wife and I have been married for 7 years, and I have had 4 one-night flings during that span. I told her about each encounter eventually.

I still find myself "looking" for someone else, whether it’s online or the woman at the bar hitting on me. It’s tough to resist.

However, after some counseling and making some serious attempts to be really honest with myself and my wife (about what I want emotionally, sexually etc...) I feel much better about myself and although tempted, have not cheated on her in almost a year.

I’ve read many of the posts here and can relate to many of you! I know all those feelings. Obviously it takes effort on both parts, but for a long time I found it easy to blame my wife entirely for my flings. I was constantly thinking about leaving her but I never did. What really has helped me remain faithful is thinking of her in a positive light, communicating together regularly, making a point to set goals together and have quality intimate time. I take it a day at a time, and try to avoid putting myself in risky/tempting situations. There are days where my mind strays, but I don’t demand perfection of myself—just that no matter how tempted I am, I won’t cross into something physical. Anyway, it works for me. Good luck to you all.

Constantly cheating on my husband

Thursday, 30 August 2007

I cheated on my husband before we got married. I slept with a long time crush of mine twice. Since we’ve been married I was intimate with a ‘friend’ at work. A few weeks ago I went on a weekend trip and met a guy who I slept with. He was amazing and was much more equip to sexually please me than my husband is. I am still talking to this guy. I am planning on going to see this guy again next month and I don’t feel bad. I know I shouldn’t but my heart is so cold to my husband right now that I don’t feel the pain this would cause him. I can’t make my heart love my husband again but I wish I could. So I told my husband that I want to get separated. He’s devastated. Part of me wants to tell him everything so that he will hate me so much that he will leave. I don’t deserve him.

My confession about cheating

Thursday, 23 August 2007

I have taken out the names so there will be gaps. This is an email that I sent to my present wife and my ex wife... I know I have caused a lot of pain, but I am hurting so much too. I want to be rid of both of them, but I love each so much in different ways. I have stopped messing with my ex-wife, but I am afraid that I needed my ex wife to balance out my current wifes craziness....Perhaps I am the one thats crazy..Anyway, reading all of these confessions has made me realize that there are a lot of people out there going through some same issues.... Here is the email: I wish this site had a comment area...

First and foremost I want to say that I have not been prompted to do this nor am I under any duress, it is just long over due.
Since we got married on 12/15/06 I have spent quit a bit of time with . To her credit, she did not know we were married and I deceived her about that situation. I have been going back and forth with you about getting a divorce because my heart is somewhere else. I don’t understand that well, otherwise I don’t think that I ever would have left in the first place, but her and our have my heart.

This is not something that I have hidden from you. Let me clear, I don’t have the illusion of getting back into a relationship with because we have both moved on with our lives and I know that I am not in a place to be a good man for anyone, but I really want to be alone because I will never be able to give you what you need. Your faults are magnified by my feelings for somebody else. I am the bad person here and I think it is time that I give you and ….. the space to truly move on and find a good man. I have been going back and forth between the two of you, for a long time, but , we truly are not yoked the same and I am wasting your time for real, because no matter how hard I try, we are not going to make it. Like I said, if you had said some of the things to me that I have to you about our relationship, we would not be together. , you know how I feel about you, but we are not going to be able to make it because we find it too hard to be straight with one another and the unpredictability. I just want everyone to have a chance to be happy. I have not been happy for a long time, so this is what I am going to do. , I am going to leave you alone so that you can really move on, , I want out of this marriage, I should not have done it in the first place and there is no need for me to go over the thousands of issues we have.

I have hurt both of you so much over the past years and I am sorry. For real I really mean that.

I hope that one day each of you will find a way to forgive me.

x, it is time for you to be strong and let me go, you can do better. Please forgive me.

y, I am dropping out of the picture so that you can truly move on as well. Please forgive me.

None of this has anything to do with the two of you, I am the bad person in this scenario. I just want a chance to be on my own and stop going back and forth. I have hurt both of you in so many ways. Please recognize what I am saying, and again, I am sorry.

So sorry.

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