Drug Use Secrets
I’m in love with someone I should be.
Crush on my professor
I have a huge crush on my professor. He is big and muscular and every bit the alpha male. He has a great personality and when I am with him, I feel like I am on cloud nine. He consumes my every thought and I fantasize about what he would be like in the bedroom.
Madly in love with a married man
I am in love with a married man. We talk hours every week but never cross the line. This has been going on for almost three years. He is in my car club and we hang out together at events. Most everyone thinks we are lovers. Only in my dreams. We talk cars, and doo wop, but never get on the edge. When we are together we both feel a very strong attraction, and we are best friends at a distance. Hours and hours we chat while he is at work on a very slow job. He monitors heating equipment, never issues, just chat. I know he has strong feelings for me but has such integrity. I would never seduce him because it would destroy him. He is a good man, one I would take in a heart beat! Sometimes he posts links to certain song and I feel it isn’t just for the fact of hey, here’s one. More like a message, and I know when they are that kind of post. I guess we are having an emotional affair. I adore him! I buy him Whopper candy and give it to him at the car club meetings. We always sit together, and he is always there at cruises and concerts to walk with me and be together. It is strained restraint. I do so adore him!
Sex with my cousin
My cousin has been hitting on me for years. We always flirted and I assumed it was innocent fun. One night at after a party he tried to kiss me 3 times. I told him to cut it out, more because I was afraid of getting caught. We are both married. He said he wanted to just go somewhere and watch movies. So we left the house we were at and started driving. We started talking about our childhood flirtations and crushes on each other. Before I knew it we were in front of a hotel room. He went in ahead of me. I was so shocked I couldn’t move. From there, everything kind of went on slow motion. I went in and sat down on the bed. I knew why we were there and the idea scared me. I kept thinking to myself "I’m a good girl," "I’m honest and would never cheat." He was quiet and I could tell a little embarrassed. I got up and went to the bathroom. Rinsed my face and took a good hard look at myself. Was I going to do this? Should I just leave? I went back into the room and from there blacked out. The next thing I remember we are lying down kissing. My dress is off and his fingers are in me. I haven’t been touched by another man in 18 years! My sex life with my husband is challenging. I’m very sexual and my spouse is not. He even needs ED meds to get it up. My cousin did not have this problem. He was very passionate and skilled. I felt really comfortable and enjoyed him in me. We had sex for hours! It felt weird afterwards because we are related, but also something very natural like it was destined to happen. I flew home the next day. We live in different states. We texted a lot at first nothing big just mild flirting. One night it did escalate to sex-ting. I feel bad that I cheated. My husband is every woman’s dream. Good looking, successful, great father, and does a lot around the house. But he can also be critical of me and dismissive to my wants. It’s pretty much his way or no way. I get around him most of the time and if I really want to do something I just go ahead. He eventually comes around. I’m definitely not in love with him but I do love and respect him. He is definitely a good life partner for me regardless of our differences. But I can’t get the great sex I had with my cousin out of my head. I’m glad we don’t live close or I think it would turn in to a full blown affair. I’m going to see him again for a family vacation and he is aware that my husband can only come for a portion of the trip. I fantasize about getting together with him again. I’m not sure if I will be able to stay away from him. The sex was just that good. But if we got caught I’d loose everything. My job has a moral clause, my husband would leave me, take the kids, and I’d probably have to move because my friends would surely disapprove. I life in an affluent community where appearances are everything. The risk is so great and we were probably just lucky that no one noticed has questioned us too much about our where abouts. This is my secret.
Crush on an older man
I like my neighbor and he’s around twenty something.. I’m 14. I just have a crush nothing big.. It just bothers me why I like a grown man.
I have a crush on my professor
I have a major crush on my professor. I don’t know why, which is kind of frightening. I have no idea what makes him so attractive to me. I just like him A LOT and feel really relieved when I know he is near.
I have fantasies about my manager
My manager is really hot. When I’m meeting with her in her office all I think about is her naked and us going at it on the desk. This fantasy won’t go away. There’s no way I would express this fantasy for her because of sex harassment or hostile work environment reasons. I just can’t get the image of her laying naked on the desk and me pounding her to go away.
I am obsessed with my neighbor
So, I cheated on my husband with my neighbor who is single and is our friend. Well, he used to be my friend. We have had a handful of physical encounters over the past 8 months, but we have sex only once. The latest encounter being only a few weeks ago. He is 8 years younger than me and is very good looking, smart and successful. It started 8 months ago after I came onto him after a night of drinking together. He accepted, but we didn’t do anything that night, because there were people with us. However, he must have gained interest. He would touch me, flirt with me and would always be around. There was quite a bit of chemistry between us and even my friends noticed. Well after time we acted on it. I would go to his house late at night and we would mess around. The next day we would regret, but we did it again. I would text him late at night after drinking to see him and he would reject me and say that we can’t do this and that my husband is his friend. I agreed with this and I knew better, but I was obsessed with him. Eventually he started to get annoyed and he eventually got angry and nasty with me in his texts. He would insult me and he even called me names. I was so incredibly hurt by this. Note, I was only texting about once every 2 weeks or so. After one night he was so angry that he blocked me from his facebook and was going to block my cell number. So, I finally stopped for a good two months. About 2 weeks ago we were together at a very close friends funeral and we all hung out, and I text him later that night to see how he was dealing and and he asked me to come over, and I did. We messed around a bit and then I left. We have said nothing to each other about it. I have seen him, but we don’t say anything about it. I did text him just a few days ago and told him that I have to let it out and he didn’t respond. I did this late at night after drinking and I know he knew I was drinking. I know he’s angry that I text him again. I feel stupid for texting him. He wants noting from me, and I keep chasing him and I’m married!! I feel terrible for what I did to my husband. The last incident really left a bad taste in my mouth, literally... I am so incredibly hurt by all of this and I feel sick. I don’t want to be with him anymore, but I can’t seem to close the door on it either. My husband is my true love and my neighbor is my obsession that I just cannot get over.
Crush on my wife’s best friend
I have a crush on my wife’s friend. I don’t know how it happened but I think it’s because my wife assumed something was going on when I was totally innocent. The fact that she was constantly bringing her home made me think about her more. I do admit I am sexually attracted to her and I’ve never messed with a girlfriend’s friend and definitely not my wife’s friends. But now if the opportunity ever arose, I wouldn’t know how to handle this situation.
My affair helped me leave a bad marriage
I left my husband of 23 years about seven months ago. Our marriage was bad for a long time and we tried counseling. Our children are 18 and 22. The stress of the bad marriage was wearing on me and I saw my physician, feeling I needed an anti-depressant. He rx’ed one but felt I didn’t really need it I just needed out of this stressful situation. He’s been my doc for over 20 years. I’m an RN. So I filed for divorce, put it on hold a few months and then pushed forward. My doc had called me with lab results in late October after I’d decided to put the divorce through. It was a few days before what would have been my 23rd wedding anniversary. As we talked it started turning a little personal...On my 23rd wedding anniversary I met my Dr at his office at night and we consummated an affair that five months later is still going on. He’s married with grown children and is 13 years older than me. He has given me money, bought me many gifts and is sending me and two of my family members on a European vac. this summer. The sex?? MIND BLOWING. My husband had a thing with porn and erectile dysfunction that he refused to get treated. He was cold, distant and could be verbally abusive. Having a physical relationship with a man that ACTUALLY enjoys sex with a woman, not a monitor, is marvelous. I do love him, I feel he loves me. With that said I’m not expecting him to EVER leave his wife. For now it’s great and I’m enjoying it, as is he.
I’m in love with my married friend
I’m attracted to a married friend. I may even be in love with him. I’m also friends with his wife, who has no idea of the extent of closeness of my relationship with her husband.
I haven’t slept with him, although he and I have talked about it. Truthfully, the only reason we haven’t is he’s afraid of the consequences if he got caught. He is unhappily married, but is afraid of the damage to his children and his reputation if his wife ever caught him cheating again (she caught him once, and made his life hell). She is aware they don’t have the greatest marriage, but is clueless about his dislike for her, lack of attraction to her, and intention to split from her once their children are older.
I’m hurt because years ago he led me on, telling me he wanted to sleep with me, and then when I said I wanted to also, he decided he couldn’t. Yet he continues to tell me how attracted he is to me and how much he wants me. He still flirts with me. I’m single, yet he won’t fix me up with any friends because he doesn’t want another man to have me.
I’m so lonely. I only wish I could find a man who is available and would get me to stop thinking about my friend, but I can’t. They don’t seem to match up to him. Meanwhile, it hurts to be around him, physically hurts, because I want him so badly, and I know he wants me. I’ve spent years thinking he will cave in at some point, but I’m not sure that will happen anytime soon. I hurt even more because he sleeps with acquaintances while on business trips because he assumes he won’t get caught since the indiscretions are taking place at such a distance.
I’ve told him how hard all this is for me. So I know he’s aware of how he makes me feel. I don’t know how to move on from this. I vacillate between feeling like I love him and hate him for what he puts me through.
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