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Cheating with my best friend’s boyfriend

Sunday, 09 November 2008

I am in love with my best friend’s boyfriend and he is in love with me.

I had a crush on him when I first met him; at the time they were only flirting and not going out. I kept the crush to myself and turned it into a friendship. I didn’t think about it at all until she moved away and they entered a long distance relationship. Then he made his move and after a night of talking we both confessed how we felt about each other. The affair started there and lasted a year. And every time she came back we pretended everything was fine and refrained from any contact whatsoever. Every time she left we both curious of our love remaining for each other found ourselves in each other’s bed, making love and talking for hours and hours, so many sleepless nights. But the pain of seeing her and guilt of knowing that every time she felt her Boyfriend was more distant, was because of me was killing me. I never wanted him out of his relationship and I thought I am in control. I thought when I find someone for myself this will go away and this love will only make us closer and it will remain forever because we can never have each other.

He was becoming more distant and annoyed with her and falling more for me but deep down he knew that since he was with her for 5 years, his future was with her. She would complain to me and I had to help, I even had to talk to him to be nicer to her. To love her the way she deserves to be loved cause after all he can’t have me and she is the answer for him! Yes, I know this is very screwed up.

Finally the guilt pushed me so hard and the love got out of control, I couldn’t stand the sight of other girls around him except for my best friend.

I knew our affair was an emotional one but I couldn’t help feeling worthless all the time. So I finally ended it despite his opposition. I told him I should not be the one closest to him and that I hope my heart is safe with him. I decided to stop our contacts and private encounters even for coffee or a drive! I am giving him back to her where he belongs and I feel like a wreck. I can’t stop blaming myself for what happened. But I truly love him and his happiness and her happiness matters the most to me. It was a love triangle and I assure you that it was like hell. I am suffering from losing the person I love the most, the guilt is still on and I feel worthless. It’s like I have lost everything in me... my morality my sincerity, my hope and my heart at the same time.

So I advise any of you who feels this was about someone to let it go, to not think about it, the guilt will make every day of it like torture, and self-esteem will decay below zero.

I am in love with my best friend

Monday, 20 October 2008

I am in love with my best friend. I have fantasies about being with you. You’re holding me in your arms and I lay my head on your chest. We kiss all night. Sound lovely, doesn’t it? Even if you chose another over me, like you already did. I really love you. No matter how many times I say I don’t, I really do. I won’t stop! Even if you never love me!

I am in love with an older woman at work

Thursday, 18 September 2008

I think I’m in love with a woman at work. It seems like I can’t stop thinking about her,even when I’m with my girlfriend, who I also care for deeply. My co-worker is married, and older than me by 10 years. I know she’s really not comfortable with age differences and says she loves her husband all the time. I’ve never actually told her how much I care for her, but she knows. I’m afraid to be near her, but can’t stay away. This isn’t fair to my girlfriend who I’ve been with for years. When she asks me what I’m constantly thinking about, do I say—another woman? The guilt is eating me alive!

Sleeping with my friend’s wife

Wednesday, 28 May 2008

I am having lesbian sex with my good friend/coworker’s wife. Secretly I hope she leaves him after a few years of us seeing each other. I feel dishonorable and guilty every time I am around him. I take a small bit of relief because she persuaded me and initiated the contact. I know that if our relationship progresses she probably won’t ever have the courage to leave him and if he ever found out it would cause me problems at work. But I secretly would trade my friendship with him to have a relationship with her. But I feel excited by the secrecy and getting away with our secret encounters.

I have been having a secret relationship

Monday, 21 April 2008

I am a 25 year old female who has been having a secret relationship with one of my closest friends who just happens to also be a girl. We are so completly compatible the only problem is that she has a live in girlfriend. This girlfriend has no education, no job and therefore is content playing happy homemaker. I on the other hand am very independent, driven and dedicated to my career as an EMT. I live with guilt everyday because there are children involved. My lover has an eight month old son and has also adopted her little brother who is five years old. These children or cared for primarily by this other girl. As for me I don’t have any kids of my own yet, but I am raising my brother’s two daughters while he is in prison. I am very torn by the love and emotional connection that her and I have developed over the past 3 years and the moral dilemma that I am faced with. The overwhelming feeling of being second best is starting to become more than I can handle. For some reason I can’t let go.

I am in love with my wife’s best friend

Saturday, 05 April 2008

I have fallen in love with my wife’s best friend. I can’t stop thinking about her. I spend the entire day thinking about what it would be like to be with her, to have sex with her, to spend all of my time with her. This is driving me crazy. I love my wife, but it feels more like a friendship. I am fearful that my feelings are going to come out somehow and everyone’s life will be ruined.

Can’t help how I feel

Thursday, 27 March 2008

I am in love with my husband’s best friend—and I think he knows it.

I want to have an affair with my coworker

Tuesday, 11 March 2008

I’m sexually attracted to my co-worker. He is single, funny, and just plain sexy. He is also attracted to me, but because I’m married he stays away. He’s scared of my husband, he says. The problem is that I can’t stop trying to make things more than they are. I can’t stop thinking about how much I want to have sex with him, about how good it would feel for us to lie naked together.

I’m an intelligent woman, yet I feel like I’m bordering on stalking behavior. How do I drop this? It’s not like my husband is not good in bed, not like I don’t value our relationship. We’ve been together for 14 years and I’ve never cheated. My co-worker is doing all the right things—like not encouraging me. Unfortunately, the challenge itself is encouraging me. How can I stop?

I am in love with one of my students

Thursday, 06 March 2008

I’ve fallen head over heels for the graduate student who taught a class I finished recently. I’m in a steady relationship, and things are (mostly) fine, but I would take any opportunity to talk to the graduate student. I made a point to look nice for his class. I even know where he lives and his phone number, thanks to the college directory. Now, while he is older than me, not by much (3 years)—I had a one year relationship with a larger age gap). I don’t find many men attractive, but my boyfriend was one of those few, and the graduate student reminds me of him in many ways. He is 27, very intelligent and an absolute pleasure to converse with, while my boyfriend, while very articulate, is a young man of simple, harmless pleasures (think video games and beer). Nothing happened, and nothing will, but I thought about it quite a bit (and still wonder if I’ll see him around next semester)....

I had an affair with one of my students

Tuesday, 19 February 2008

I have been married twenty-eight years, have two sons that are grown. I live a life in the public arena and the career(s) I have chosen are respectable, morally and ethically bound. I had an affair with one of my college students. She is married she is sweet and beautiful. I don’t want to leave my wife and destroy my family and all we have work for, but I need her in my life. I care for her deeply. I don’t think I love her. I am afraid to fall in love with her. I tried to walk away, but I need her. We haven’t been together sexually in almost a year. I need her close to me even if its talking in emails.

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