All Secrets Revealed by Date

Long-distance cheating

I am in a long-distance relationship with my gf of five years. Recently I cheated on her with a co-worker, mainly due to loneliness. Or at least I think that’s why I did it. It has now happened more than once. I can’t sleep from the guilt. I know if I confess I will lose her, and it will crush her. The guilt is truly killing me. I have done so much for her over the years and want to feel like this does not outweigh all the good and how much of a good boyfriend I have been.

I love you so much and I am so so so sorry. I can’t lose you. I just can’t.

Sexually obsessed with husband’s friend

I am have cultivated a sexual obsession for one of my husband’s friends. I feel so guilty, but I refuse to stop fantasizing about it. I’m terrified that I will "fall out of lust" with my husband over it!

Can’t stop cheating

My secret is that I have had trysts while in a relationship. Our relationship started four years ago and we didn’t have a lot of sex. I was 22 at the time and he was 26. After about half a year passed I attempted to have sex with a friend when we were very drunk, incidentally at his wedding night (his wife knew and thought it was hot?!) and we failed--thankfully. Then I kissed a friend and a roommate. Each encounter included an explicit statement that I would rather be doing this with my boyfriend; that I was only doing this out of desperation to feel sexual again. After a little over a year of dating I finally did sleep with someone; I saw them 2 or 3 times and felt overwhelmed with guilt for 2 years. I became convinced that I deserved to be unhappy and sexless because I was a liar. Two years later I had a 2 week long affair with someone I found emotionally and physically unattractive but very easy. It’s been a year since and I feel like the most horrible person. My boyfriend and I still have sex less than once a month. I am terrified that deep down he knows and all I want is for our lives to move forward. Sometimes I think about leaving him just because I cannot take the guilt.

Fuzzy childhood memories

I don’t remember much from my childhood. It was a terrible time though. My adoptive dad was an alcoholic, a really mean and scary one. I remember one time when I was around 5 years old, I was trying to get his attention and talk to him and I had been in the room for hours with him sleeping or playing by myself. Then I saw that he was looking at a bunch of naked people on the computer, I came up behind him and he didn’t say anything but he knew I was there. I stared a little longer at the people on the computer because I was confused. I didn’t understand what it was, I actually thought it was some sort of art or something. (We had artsy pictures hanging up all over our walls) I felt a little uneasy but that’s all the memory I have of that certain circumstance. I also used to pee my bed a lot as child until I was 12, I have a lot of missing pieces of time from my childhood from ages 4-11. He eventually re-married and I thought I had a new normal family. It wasn’t. There was a girl and her mother who came to live with us, the girl often used stuffed animals or a blanket to masturbate, we were around age 6. I had never heard of anything like this before and she said it brought her comfort. Her mom just let her do it and didn’t think anything of it. I don’t know why but she tried to show me and get me to do it. She did it in the same room as me a lot of times. I don’t know why I have these specific memories but I do, I also have some other ones but as soon as I try to think of more than one memory my mind gets all fuzzy and I start to forget everything.

Anxiety over losing him

Not exactly a secret I guess, but something I want to get off my chest. I think I’ve found the love of my life, and someone who I can see myself marrying someday. I can’t tell if this is foolish thinking or I’m being naive. I guess my "secret" is that I’m terribly afraid of ever losing him, or messing things up and not being able to repair them... I know that I would lose my best friend and the love of my life, and I don’t believe I’d ever feel close to the same way about someone else as I feel about him. I think this is it for me, and he’s it for me. It’s scary to have this much pressure I guess, on not wanting to lose my potential soulmate for the rest of my life. I never want to do anything to jeopardize our relationship, but this overthinking is stressing me out because he means the world to me and it’s scary to not know what the future holds.