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Guilty about cheating on my girlfriend

A few days ago, I was intoxicated pretty heavily and ended up having sex for a brief moment with another girl. Now it’s slowly eating away at me. Tearing down everything I had I built for myself with the girl I’m in love with. And that may seem really contradictory but I am in love with her. And I know it. I’ve only been with 2 girls, the 3rd being the mistake. And it only made me realize that my curiosity to "try out new things" was completely misplaced. I love the girl I am with and want to spend the rest of my life with her. And I know for a fact this will never happen again. But the guilt is really weighing on me and I don’t know what to do. I get so anxious when she’s not 100% feeling good like she’s found out and she’s just waiting to tell me and it is really taking a toll on me.

Cover and lie to make things better but it doesn’t work

For years I have been my family’s protector. I am the oldest of three. My parents were substance abusers. I had to take care of my siblings at an early age. I HAD to lie to the police and to child welfare to keep my siblings in the home. Speed up years later and my siblings are abusers as well. I ah to lien to the police to keep them out of jail. During that time my mom got married to a physical abuser so guess what... I HAD to lie to the police AGAIN to say that we were ok. That my siblings and I were just being to rough with each other..."you know...boys will be boys" I had to lie to the neighbors, to school officials, doctors and family members all for the sake of my family. Eventually I moved out and had a family of my own. However, my wife decided that I was not paying attention to her and she had an affair and got pregnant. Now I didn’t want my kids having to deal with her infidelity so I... one more time HAD to lie to everyone that our marriage was perfect and the kids saw happiness.

I did tell one person and the look of disgust and hearing the "you should have... I would have... why are you still..." that was all negative to me. We have since divorced...but hey wait there’s more. I eventually divorced and moved away and "found" me. I started dating a guy that is the most beautiful guy anybody could ask for. He only cared about me... not what I did for a living where I lived or what I drove just me. And to be open and honest. I could never tell him about me because it would reveal my family and I am embarrassed... disappointed... ashamed. I felt that he wouldn’t understand. He didn’t catch me in a lie and he doesn’t want to be with me anymore. I recently stopped smoking. He was coming over to have dinner. I left my place to go to the nearest smoke shop to get incense because my place smelled like cigarette smoke. I lied to him saying I was outside instead of saying I was going to the shop. I didn’t want to see the look on his face or hear that he was upset. For the first time in my life I had someone proud of me for something that I achieved something and I didn’t want to make him feel like I was a failure.

Messages boards are rough on Truth About Deception

I was a member of this board years ago trying to work on my marriage. I invited my wife here to discuss our issues and see where we needed work. Dan Kwan and sunny often gave advice usually ending up with me needing work as I knew I needed. I was discarded from this forum because I cleared my browser history of porn; my wife had garnered them onto her side because of how I was acting. Trying desperately to fight for my name. I just wanted to let you two know, she is a covert narcissist and I have been isolated from friends, family and I only recognized it when she started abusing my brother. Thanks for being flying monkeys, I told you it wasn’t like it seemed.

Cheating on my girlfriend helped me realize how much I love her

Two months ago I cheated on my partner. We had a very difficult year in our relationship that had me considering on several occasions whether I ought to break up with her or not. Then I went away for three weeks and after a string if bad decisions I ended up with another girl. I regretted it instantly and hated myself for it. It did make me realize how much I loved my gf and how my life would be shattered without her. When I met up with her I could tell that our entire dynamic had changed. I was much more positive about our relationship and was willing to do anything to make it work. After a very stressful period of work in which I had a series of panic attacks and breakdowns, I find myself struck with a horrible sensation of guilt that I have done something to hurt her. We had one little argument and seeing her upset ripped my heart out. I am now shaken with incredible anxiety and fear about having cheated on her that one time and how much that would be painful to her.

Love my girlfriend and regret cheating on her

Two months ago I cheated on my partner. We had had a very difficult year in our relationship that had me considering on several occasions whether I ought to break up with her or not. Then I went away for three weeks and after a string if bad decisions I ended up with another girl. I regretted it instantly and hated myself for it. It did make me realize how much I loved my gf and how my life would be shattered without her. When I met up with her I could tell that our entire dynamic had changed. I was much more positive about our relationship and was willing to do anything to make it work. After a very stressful period of work in which I had a series of panic attacks and breakdowns, I find myself struck with a horrible sensation of guilt that I have done something to hurt her. We had one little argument and seeing her upset ripped my heart out. I am now shaken with incredible anxiety and fear about having cheated on her that one time and how much that would be painful to her.