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Hiding my past life of lies from my boyfriend |
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Wednesday, 21 May 2008 |
I never told my boyfriend (of one year) a lot of the awful things I've done in my past. I am such a different person now, but I used to lie all the time. He doesn't know that. He doesn't know that lying was like second nature to me.
He also doesn't know that I used to hurt myself.
It's just that these things seem like they came from some other person. I've distanced myself so much from it.
I just don't know if it's wrong of me not to tell him about my past or keep it to myself. I feel so guilty for the things I've done. And I just wonder if maybe it would be better to start over with someone that knew everything about me and who I used to be. But I just love him so much. I just wish I had been straightforward with him from the beginning.
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