Marie,
I was in the exact position you find yourself about a year ago. I remember feeling all the things you have expressed.
My heart brakes for you.
My advice - treat yourself as you should be treated and not as you have become accustomed to being treated.
You cannot do this alone. Resist the urge to retreat and seek out your strongest, best girlfriends. They can help you transition out of this marriage. And out you must be.
You and only you can heal your broken heart. It takes so much energy to heal. Energy you will not have if you remain in the relationship.
As the clouds lift you will be able to see yourself and him differently. When you can start to laugh at him, then you know you are well on your way to an intact heart.
One day at a time,
Liz
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