my husband will be checking anything i have on here/ jut to let you know..i am sorry for any discouse i have caused and will not b back.. i am sorry

You just need to take the right steps forward. Start telling the truth and be honest with everyone else and yourself.

If you do whats right then you should be able to fix this. As for your lying causing your husband to be abusive, that is a bunch of crap and you are making excuses for his mistakes.

thats what he is telling me. all i know is htat i am moving forward. i've been the one willing to say i have made mistakes and be wrong. but as far as he is concerned he has done nothing wrong. i am doing what i can for me and my kids. i am trying to work on my marriage, but unless he admits hes also to blame, i don't think i have much more room to neogotiate with. rael

i am no longer talking to my ex-bf. my husband has asked me not to cause he feels threatened. its a long story...i am doing what i can to make this all right. we are both in counseling, we'll have to wait and see. i just thought i'd keep you all posted..ty

i will no longer be emailing my old bf. i promised my husband. For the sake of our marriage as well as for the sake of my four boyz. i am trying to do whatever it takes to make this right and will continue to do so. no one ever said life was easy...just one day at a time.heres an email i just got.
As we grow up, we larn that even the one person that wasn't suppossed to ever let you down probably will.You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things the old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll lose someone you love. So.. take many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back...
Don't be afraid that your life will end...
be afraid that it will never begin.