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My wife had an affair during which time she got pregnant. We were having a lot of problems, so got an apartment and moved out. At the time I had to move out of town because of a change of jobs, and I would come home every weekend, so she had enough time to have sexual contact with her lover. She has always denied having the affair, even though she once told me she was falling in love with "this guy" she worked with. Also, she didn't hide the fact she was also flirting with other men, clients and coworkers of the bank she worked at. One day she called me because she was coming to meet me at the other town because she was having an abortion. She alleged we couldn't afford another baby. We already had a two year old. I supported her on her decision to terminate her pregnancy, and even went to the clinic with her, because I realized she needed my help and support as her husband. I also made it clear that I didn't think the baby was mine, so I wouldn't sign the admittance paperwork as her husband or even as a witness. It was a very physical and morally painful procedure for her, and she has been sorry for it since then for killing her baby. On the other hand, I guess it was safer than her having this baby, which I have no doubt she wasn't sure who was the father. As for me, I still think the baby was not mine, I don't feel any remorse. On the contrary, I think it would have been a hell of a life for the baby and for me suspecting I wasn't his/her father. My educated guess is that her lover, or sex partners, deserted her, not even to pay for the abortion. After all, she was married, so let her husband pay the consequences of her pregnancy. To say the least, this is something that has bothered me for the longest time. We reconciled, moved to another state, but I cannot forget her for her indiscretion and her lies, even though she won't accept it. Thank you for the opportunity to let me vent.
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