Truth About Deception

I recently began a relationship with a man, I know deep down is perfect for me. He is a lot of fun, knows how to do things, good listener, attractive, smart, good in bed, attractive, respects me, has a good job and is stable. But I use meth behind his back. But after writing this, and now that its all in front of me, I wonder why I ever did in the first place. He's so much better.