| I don't know how to keep a secret or my mouth shut. I tell everything I think and feel to almost anyone. I do not feel I get the same in return. I feel lately I should learn to listen more, observe more and share less of myself. Lying is a waste of my precious time... almost like there are liars and honest people. I have a great desire to do the most effective, productive thing and try to be understood so I can grow.... not kill/decay... a medifore. I trust myself to give 100% effort, but i think everyone else is out for themselves when, if we just freakin worked together.... I'm confused. I love myself to death yet feel very insecure. I feel deserving, but not confident in karma..... I really hope I will get what I give, and others will get what they have given. Why can't I trust anyone? I don't even want to care ... I don't want to be jealous even if people are decieving me. I want to understand as much as be understood. I don't want or need jealousy..... I think..... what could it be possibly good for? How do I make the jealousy go away? I want to plan my life, not worry about some-one else's. It's wasting my precious time! |
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